Sometimes life throws us a curveball. It's how we deal with it that makes all the difference.
My Personal Story
For me, it was the perfect storm. February 2020kicked off with a routine mammogram. Something I've done numerous times in my life, always with a good outcome. But not this time. Two days later I received a phone call from the doctor telling me they may have detected a mass in my breast, and urged me to come in for additional tests. Like many women, I had had this experience before, and after a redo of the mammo (not fun the first time, I would add) it turned out to be just fine. But not this time. The mass really was there and I consented to a biopsy that day. Almost immediately I heard back from the doctor with the word I dreaded to hear... cancer. She recommended I schedule a surgical consult right away. Right then and there I went into serious overwhelm mode. How could this be happening to me? How can I have cancer? I eat right, exercise, practice a healthy lifestyle... but there it was. Diagnosis: stage 1, grade 3, triple negative breast cancer. I have cancer and I am terrified. I felt powerless and enraged, filled with anxiety and uncertain about my future. Will I live through this? Is this the end of the road for me?
At that moment it seemed that life started moving very fast. For any of you who have lived through this yourselves, I know you can relate. The phone starts ringing 3 or more times a day from doctors' offices calling to schedule tests, consults and surgery. WHEW! I had landed in serious overwhelm mode. I wasn't taking advantage of my very best allies, namely all the tools at my disposal as a healer and coach or even reaching out to my own personal coach. Instead, I dropped into my Fight, Flight or Freeze operating system big time. I was thinking with my limbic brain and my prefrontal, higher mind was shut down. I knew I had to get a handle on myself and I had to do it fast.
Then, just a week before I was scheduled for surgery, COVID-19 struck and all "non-essential surgeries" were cancelled. And my fear, anger and uncertainty about the future skyrocketed. How in the world is it possible that cancer surgery is non-essential?? Since surgery was no longer an option, I was advised to start a series of 16 rounds of chemotherapy over the course of 5 months. I was being forced to accept what I was powerless to change.
I don't know about you, but for me the second scariest word to hear after cancer is chemotherapy. For an indeterminate period of time, surgery was not an going to be an option and it turns out I had an aggressive form of cancer that wasn't going to wait around for operating rooms to open back up. So after a weekend of serious soul searching I agreed to begin a course of chemotherapy.
By now I was a couple of weeks into this major upheaval and had begun to wrap my head and heart around the situation. I was getting a powerful wakeup call. REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU DO. YOU HELP PEOPLE. YOU TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO IDENTIFY, CULTIVATE AND TRUST THEIR INNER GUIDANCE SYSTEM SO THEY CAN MAKE POWERFUL CHOICES AND TAKE ACTION WITH CONFIDENCE AND CLARITY.
Thankfully I had many tools in my tool basket and I had been given the opportunity to work my magic on me! I realized at that point in my healing that the most valuable "tool" I had wasknowing that life is happening FOR ME and not TO ME. Keeping this awareness front of mind I began to plumb the depths of my psyche asking the hard questions. What is this cancer here to teach me? What have I been unconscious of that needs to have my attention? How can I heal using this experience as an ally and not an adversary? Through deep personal inquiry, meditation, dietary refinement, tapping, inviting in the help of my family, friends, coaches, medical professionals and the greater community, I continued to heal, to unearth and dissolve unexamined beliefs and conditioning, to become more open-hearted and compassionate and a truly better self than ever before. Crazy as it may sound to some people, this cancer journey unblocked an abundance of blessings in my life.
I'm not saying I thought I could go it alone. Oh no. That rugged individual concept simply isn't true. We are social beings and it takes a village to grow and support each and every one of us. And with the support I asked for and was given, I healed - totally and completely.
When the surgery was finally offered THERE WAS NO CANCER - NO TUMOR - NO LYMPH INVOLVEMENT; a complete pathological response! This healing of my body also brought deep healing to my mind, my emotions and my connection to something greater - the Universal Life Force that connects us all.
This is my story and maybe it seems like I have something you don't, I can assure you that simply isn't the case. We all have the ability to overcome whatever obstacle life throws in front of us. The only real difference is as a Coach I have a fully stocked "toolkit" that I was able to tap into. So I invite you to consider cultivating that toolkit for yourself. A powerful alliance with the right Coach at your side will enable you to hear your own inner guidance, and bring balance, harmony and overall fulfillment into your everyday experience. That is the road to living joyfully once more.
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